Get it Together, Kiki. (2019 Edition)

Hi Friends (Exactly what the title states right?), I’ve been busy networking, adjusting to my job, going through healthy rounds of therapy, and crying because of rejection. You would think that after my reading for Outloud SB I would be thriving in confidence, and I was for a bit, but it’s starting to fade a little. I’ve always had trouble taking rejection because I ALWAYS felt like I’ve had to prove myself to others. I know people say not to care and to be yourself; however, sometimes it’s easier said than done. The best part is I’m trying! I’m trying … Continue reading Get it Together, Kiki. (2019 Edition)

It’s Because I Feel Too Much

I recently bought a waterproof mascara because I’m known to be emotional. As a child, I thought it was odd to cry as much as I did, but now I tell myself, its because I feel too deeply. I even wrote a song about it a few months ago called ” Validation.”  Its because I feel too much and things get real too fast. Sometimes I even think, I’m dealing with my own ancestor’s/ family’s trauma in this generation and that’s probably why I’m like this. Whatever it is, I have to thank my emotions because I have creative outlets as coping … Continue reading It’s Because I Feel Too Much

*Holy Water (Poem) (2013)

Hi!!! I’m fresh out of my Outloud SB reading and I’m eager to tell you all the details now, but I have to post my creative writing work first. I’ll write about it sometime this week. Six years ago, I was in David Starkey’s Creative Writing class at Santa Barbara City College and we learned how to write “Prose Poems.” According to Poets.org, Prose Poems can appear as prose but reads like poetry.  At nineteen, and even now at twenty-four, I often questioned whether American society was becoming more superficial.  I wrote the prose poem “Holy Water,” envisioning god making … Continue reading *Holy Water (Poem) (2013)

If Only, If Only… Hi Dodgers!

Hi, So, I have millions of dreams that I want to achieve and they all involve writing and journalism. Some include: publishing my two short stories collections, writing for T.V, and becoming a news assignment editor. My dreams have shifted, but for about a year now, I’ve been thinking about becoming a sports journalist on top of everything else. The reason is: It’s a masculine career and I like to challenge the status quo. ALWAYS! I only watch one sport, baseball. I only root for one team, the Dodgers. It was until a few years ago I was able to … Continue reading If Only, If Only… Hi Dodgers!

Keep It to Yourself

Hi! Quick post today, I’ve been overthinking on how to tell you guys some good news, but I decided to keep it to myself for superstition purposes- just know that if you work hard and embrace who you are opportunities will eventually come. With everyone out there comparing themselves to others, it takes away from your own accomplishments. Why can’t we all be genuinely happy for each other’s success? Also, It’s been almost four months and I got an email saying my degree is barely on its way. Hey, better late than never right? This M.F.A marks 20 years in … Continue reading Keep It to Yourself

*Mestizaje (2016)

For today’s Creative Writing Sunday, I thought I’d share the piece I read at the UCSB Southeast Asian open mic night this past Thursday. It’s a revisited work from my undergraduate Capstone project.  It is a fiction/nonfiction piece about my early introduction with nationality versus ethnicity.   Mestizaje It was the Mestizaje of natives, Africans, and Spanish that created the new race entitled Mexican, but all I saw when I looked into the mirror was a young Mexican girl. I thought being Mexican was my one and only ethnicity. Going to a predominantly white elementary school never let me forget that. … Continue reading *Mestizaje (2016)

Not the Fyre Festival- One Love Festival Review

Hi there… I watched both documentaries of the Fyre Festival before I went to the One Love Reggae Festival last weekend. So my friend Xander and I found Fyre Fest relevance in everything. For example, it rained the night before we went to One Love and the turf was muddy and damped. The location was by the Queen Mary/ harbor, so it was a bit flooded. It reminded us of the Frye Festival documentary, the scene where it rained and flooded in those hurricane relief tents before the concert-goers arrived. I can’t believe people spent that much money on tickets … Continue reading Not the Fyre Festival- One Love Festival Review

*FIRST Creative Writing Post- My Mexican Name

OMG! I can’t believe I’m actually posting my own creative work, every Sunday (I know it’s not Sunday, I didn’t post yesterday because of the Super Bowl! So proud of the Rams!). I’m skeptical of people stealing my work, but it’s a risk. I need to get my work there… I want my first creative post to introduce you to me, so I decided to publish “My Mexican Name,” a short story rejected from CSU Channel Island’s literary magazine, the Island Fox and it is the piece I submitted to Outloud Santa Barbara. Most of my work reflects the struggle … Continue reading *FIRST Creative Writing Post- My Mexican Name

I’ve Had It!

It’s been almost a year since my last post and it’s not that I have been neglecting my writing; I was finishing up my last year in graduate school. Yes, I am the youngest and first Latina woman to graduate from this creative writing program and even that doesn’t satisfy me. You know why? Ever since I fell in love with journalism and myself, I know I deserve better than all this $15/hr part-time jobs and obviously these losers I date who claim to be “woke,” but are scared to date smart-educated-self-aware woman. I’ve been searching and searching and walking … Continue reading I’ve Had It!

No Makeup November Once Again

Hello, my readers and haters, Today is my second day of NMN and this year I decided to do it for myself.  No more filters on Snapchat or Instagram filters. It takes me about an hour and a half to get ready, and I’ve been relying on makeup to feel confident and pretty without realizing I’m hiding behind it again. Thankfully,  I have this month to work on how I feel on the inside rather than the outside. I’ve been having trouble with losing weight because of a particular health condition I have, and it’s been mentality straining. I am 23 years … Continue reading No Makeup November Once Again