Reasons Why I Suck At Dating

You get sprung up on a guy who doesn’t want to be in a relationship. Making plans with someone is hard to do especially when your busy 24/7 like me. You suck at communication or maybe he sucks at it. Why does it take forever for a guy to text back? Seriously. He never texted back ever again. I know what an asshole. You get sprung up on the next guy, who shows so much interest in you. Then, you become skeptical of that and will probably ruin it in a span of 3 weeks. (it’s been two thus far.) … Continue reading Reasons Why I Suck At Dating

Cold Hearted Bitch Is Not Actually Cold Hearted?

I’ve always struggled to express how I feel about anything really. I want someone to be able to read my mind and emotions, so I don’t have to explain to myself. I’ve always thought why do people care about how I feel? Maybe I’ve had to please too many people in my past that I forgot how to please myself. I think that’s why I’m a perfect candidate to be a writer because through writing I can say what I need to say, but in person, I feel disconnected towards my emotions. How will I be able to fix that? Push … Continue reading Cold Hearted Bitch Is Not Actually Cold Hearted?

I’m A Fucking Vampire

I’m a fucking Vampire,  not in the thirst for human blood, but in the way, I’ve been going to sleep late and I keep waking up two hours into my sleep. What does that mean? I woke up, texted a friend back, who was surprising awake too, then I closed my eyes waiting to sleep. Eventually, I did fall asleep only to wake up early for my genre workshop morning class, which I was late for. With my luck, people filming a promotional video for my MFA program came in and filmed us workshopping my chapter. My LUCK! I tried to … Continue reading I’m A Fucking Vampire

Are You There? It’s Me Kiki

Hi, friends, fans, and stalkers, I took a couple of months off from writing, particularly blogging. I had to take the time to evolve as a human being and a writer, mostly human being. The person who posted six months ago is not the same as the one writing this post right now. In fact, I’m officially a graduate student (youngest one in my cohort) and new front desk receptionist of my university. I also gained a whole new perspective on life and it’s pretty damn optimistic. You guys are probably excited to hear my two-sense on things and my … Continue reading Are You There? It’s Me Kiki

First Week of N.M.N: Why Am I Doing This Again?

The children at my work kept asking me why I wasn’t wearing makeup, which I responded to “I’m doing No Makeup November to show people you don’t need to wear makeup to feel pretty.” Great answer, but these past seven days I kept asking myself why am I doing this? I asked this especially when I walked into a work meeting and saw an attractive guy sitting across from me. Last week I thought the reason I’m doing this was to rebuild confidence, but now I’m doing this in regards to people battling body dysmorphia. What exactly is body dysmorphia? According to … Continue reading First Week of N.M.N: Why Am I Doing This Again?

Hypersexualized and Racially Offensive Costumes are Expectional

Dressing up for Halloween confines me, a woman, into one exceptional standard, hypersexualized. For a nerd like myself, I don’t feel comfortable displaying too much. It is indeed ironic coming from the generation that brought back crop tops-a small shirt that exposes stomach midsection, best worn with high-waisted shorts. It’s easier for you to say, wear a costume that isn’t too hypersexualized, but it doesn’t feel too great having guys give attention to those who do follow that standard. Unfortunately, we live in a society where sex sells; however looks can be deceiving. Makeup can make anyone appear like a model … Continue reading Hypersexualized and Racially Offensive Costumes are Expectional

Beauty Standards Instilled at A Young Age

I can’t tell you exactly what my job is for confidentiality purposes; however, it does involve working with kids. I feel responsible for what they learn inside and outside the classroom. Although outside the classroom is beyond my control.   On Friday I decided to hide my hair inside a hat and wear no makeup. The whole week was draining, and I wasn’t motivated enough to curl my hair and take the time to do my makeup perfectly. I also felt upset about someone who isn’t worth discussing.  While I was at work, a student came up to me and … Continue reading Beauty Standards Instilled at A Young Age