Hi Friends (Exactly what the title states right?), I’ve been busy networking, adjusting to my job, going through healthy rounds of therapy, and crying because of rejection. You would think that after my reading for Outloud SB I would be thriving in confidence, and I was for a bit, but it’s starting to fade a little. I’ve always had trouble taking rejection because I ALWAYS felt like I’ve had to prove myself to others. I know people say not to care and to be yourself; however, sometimes it’s easier said than done. The best part is I’m trying! I’m trying … Continue reading Get it Together, Kiki. (2019 Edition)
Hi! Quick post today, I’ve been overthinking on how to tell you guys some good news, but I decided to keep it to myself for superstition purposes- just know that if you work hard and embrace who you are opportunities will eventually come. With everyone out there comparing themselves to others, it takes away from your own accomplishments. Why can’t we all be genuinely happy for each other’s success? Also, It’s been almost four months and I got an email saying my degree is barely on its way. Hey, better late than never right? This M.F.A marks 20 years in … Continue reading Keep It to Yourself
Hi there… I watched both documentaries of the Fyre Festival before I went to the One Love Reggae Festival last weekend. So my friend Xander and I found Fyre Fest relevance in everything. For example, it rained the night before we went to One Love and the turf was muddy and damped. The location was by the Queen Mary/ harbor, so it was a bit flooded. It reminded us of the Frye Festival documentary, the scene where it rained and flooded in those hurricane relief tents before the concert-goers arrived. I can’t believe people spent that much money on tickets … Continue reading Not the Fyre Festival- One Love Festival Review
It’s been almost a year since my last post and it’s not that I have been neglecting my writing; I was finishing up my last year in graduate school. Yes, I am the youngest and first Latina woman to graduate from this creative writing program and even that doesn’t satisfy me. You know why? Ever since I fell in love with journalism and myself, I know I deserve better than all this $15/hr part-time jobs and obviously these losers I date who claim to be “woke,” but are scared to date smart-educated-self-aware woman. I’ve been searching and searching and walking … Continue reading I’ve Had It!
The hardest part of being an English major is not having support from your own Alma Mater. I was an undergraduate senior student at Cal State Channel Islands University when I submitted my first non-fiction story to their infamous literary magazine entitled “The Island Fox.” I felt a little apprehensive before turning in this piece that was about one of my favorite memories of visiting my grandparents in Mexico because the English professor running it was not a fan of me. In fact, she told me that I would NEVER make it as a writer, which made me contemplate dropping … Continue reading Dear English Majors
Hello friends, I am recovering from possibly one of the best weekends I’ve had in a long time. I’m not the type of woman who finds herself at bars and clubs three nights in a row, I look like a librarian for goodness sake, but there I was doing the damn thing. How do people do it? Party three nights in a row like that? On a normal basis! That’s insane. Besides, one of my professors from school gave me advice on how to be a better a writer. Actually, it was a list of fourteen things. Here are my … Continue reading Advice From a Writer to Whoever Wants It…
During my residency, I took a class entitled, “Rewriting and Revision,” with Colette Freedman. One quote that has stuck with me from that class (after a random tangent) was “Forties is where it’s at! It’s the best age to be because you don’t care what people think of you. You don’t give a fuck.” At age twenty-two, almost twenty-three getting to the point of your life where “you don’t care about what people think of you” is light years away. I thought by now my obsession with body image would fade, but it’s the same. The only thing that’s different … Continue reading Why Not Now?
You get sprung up on a guy who doesn’t want to be in a relationship. Making plans with someone is hard to do especially when your busy 24/7 like me. You suck at communication or maybe he sucks at it. Why does it take forever for a guy to text back? Seriously. He never texted back ever again. I know what an asshole. You get sprung up on the next guy, who shows so much interest in you. Then, you become skeptical of that and will probably ruin it in a span of 3 weeks. (it’s been two thus far.) … Continue reading Reasons Why I Suck At Dating
I’ve always struggled to express how I feel about anything really. I want someone to be able to read my mind and emotions, so I don’t have to explain to myself. I’ve always thought why do people care about how I feel? Maybe I’ve had to please too many people in my past that I forgot how to please myself. I think that’s why I’m a perfect candidate to be a writer because through writing I can say what I need to say, but in person, I feel disconnected towards my emotions. How will I be able to fix that? Push … Continue reading Cold Hearted Bitch Is Not Actually Cold Hearted?
I’m a fucking Vampire, not in the thirst for human blood, but in the way, I’ve been going to sleep late and I keep waking up two hours into my sleep. What does that mean? I woke up, texted a friend back, who was surprising awake too, then I closed my eyes waiting to sleep. Eventually, I did fall asleep only to wake up early for my genre workshop morning class, which I was late for. With my luck, people filming a promotional video for my MFA program came in and filmed us workshopping my chapter. My LUCK! I tried to … Continue reading I’m A Fucking Vampire