I fell in love.  I did.  I fell in love with journalism, storytelling, talking and writing.  Here’s the January 2020 update on my life. I’m a writing tutor and an office/ digital sales assistant. I still feel like I haven’t accomplished anything. I’m not here to complain or anything, but it feels so wrong how I’ve worked my entire life through education and nobody believes in my potential. It makes me believe I don’t have potential either. I feel insane, discouraged, unwanted, and I feel like a lot of successful individuals feel like this before they finally get their big … Continue reading Brilliant Things

Hi friends,   I was suppose to write during my halfway mark, but I couldn’t. Not because I didn’t want to, I just was still trying to fight off doubts. I didn’t want to rant about how not wearing makeup highlights my flaws and how the events going on were endless trigger after trigger. Now that I’m in a better state of mind, I can admit that the days I could clearly see my imperfections were also the days when I doubted myself the most. What were the doubts? Well. I wasn’t just centered on appearance, but not knowing where … Continue reading N.M.N: Self Improvements

Welcome to November! (I know a double post) This is my fourth year participating in “No Makeup November.” It began four years ago, when I was teaching children ages 5-12 at an after-school program- this was back when I thought I was going to be a teacher, that itself is another story. I remember I was supervising the older students during their snack break, when one of them mentioned they couldn’t wait to get older like me. I asked why and they responded, “because I can wear makeup and be beautiful like you.” This broke my heart. To them the … Continue reading No Makeup November

PLEASE DON’T HATE ME. The break between April and now (November) has been long and unexpected. I think it was subconsciously intentional. Life gets difficult, you get blind-sided, people fuck you over, you loose friends, and you need some time to understand the proper ways to tackle things in a healthy matter. I made the decision to stop going to therapy because I’ve learned how to deal with my emotions and anxiety in several different ways. One way, was to start writing how I feel in my journal like I normally did; Another way, was to take a step back … Continue reading Please Don’t Hate Me/ “I Go to Work to Work and not Make Friends”