Brilliant Things

I fell in love. 

I did. 

I fell in love with journalism, storytelling, talking and writing. 

Here’s the January 2020 update on my life. I’m a writing tutor and an office/ digital sales assistant. I still feel like I haven’t accomplished anything. I’m not here to complain or anything, but it feels so wrong how I’ve worked my entire life through education and nobody believes in my potential. It makes me believe I don’t have potential either. I feel insane, discouraged, unwanted, and I feel like a lot of successful individuals feel like this before they finally get their big break. Hasn’t everyone from Oprah to Sandra Cisernos to Michelle Obama felt like this, before they pursued their extraordinary dreams? Am I not that far? Does someone have to feel like they’re falling apart like this? 

In pursuit of my dream career, I have thought of nothing else. Well, maybe going back to school to get an A.A in Journalism te perdido or algo a si. I have an offer to intern at a radio station in town for only six hours with no pay. I’m not really sure what to do because I did that on impulse. I have no time to add six hours to my schedule because I still got to pay my loans. I need something that pays, but you can’t get something that pays if you don’t have any experience. 

I’m tired of the same results, so I’m seeking to take matters into my own hands. Hopefully tomorrow I’ll feel more positive about my situation because it could be worse, right?

I feel like this the hill I need to keep climbing

I need to be grateful, I need to thank myself, and understand brilliant things take time.


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