It’s been almost a year since my last post and it’s not that I have been neglecting my writing; I was finishing up my last year in graduate school. Yes, I am the youngest and first Latina woman to graduate from this creative writing program and even that doesn’t satisfy me. You know why? Ever since I fell in love with journalism and myself, I know I deserve better than all this $15/hr part-time jobs and obviously these losers I date who claim to be “woke,” but are scared to date smart-educated-self-aware woman.
I’ve been searching and searching and walking around my house pacing myself trying to figure out how to become a successful writer when in reality I have no idea what the fuck I’m doing! I think that’s my problem. I’ve always had things mapped out and this time I’m lost. The only good thing about this is I have an M.F.A and I know what I want to do, just don’t know how to get there.
It reminds me of when I graduated from CSUCI with my English B.A and moved back home and I was like “Now What?”
I’ve reached out to numerous contacts of mine and I’ve applied to many jobs and nothing.
The only thing keeping me insane is obviously myself, writing, and my one part-time job, which I love, but I want a career now. Who do I blame for being so impatient?
Sometimes I wonder if I was white, would this even be a problem?
Okay, I assure you I will keep posting and bluntly. I ain’t holding back anymore. I’ve had it! I’m exploding with creativity so I might start posting original music, short stories, and video content!
With love, the Mexican Jenna Hamilton